Sometimes I wonder why I should do 'it' intently. If no, I would be so uncomfortable or unsecure. Somehow, 'it' became one of my habits in life. Did you ever realize sometimes what you do that is all come from your mind automatically? Yes, I did. This just like somebody needs to drink a cup of coffee before working. If no, seem like everything cannot be done smoothly on that day. For me, everything will be done by today must be arranged and planned by yesterday. If someone or something mess up my 'schedule' that could totally drive me crazily. Or even sometimes, when i find out anything that I cannot stand with would able to make me mad easily. For instance, when I having meal with my mom, she cannot finish all the rice in her plate, I would be so uncomfortable with it. And usually I will ask my mom to finish it, some more I think we should appreciate the foods. However, someone told me yesterday about my reactions are considered as one kind of disease, called as Obessive- compulsive disorder (OCD). It also known as a kind of anxiety disorder. Through the information that I obtained from web, state that the patients always suffering on thinking invasive plagued by recurring obsessions and compulsions in life, so that the patients feel anxiety, panic or worry and repetitive behaviors such as washing hands few times continuously. However, it can be classified as three stage, slightly, moderate and serious. So I think I m the slightly one because mostly I've self-control to make myself not easily to get mad. And now I've found another way to release my 'uncomfortable and unsecure' for example like exercising or listening to the light music. At that moment, keep comforting myself: Relax..relax..relax..
