一字曰：改

不知不觉来到了五月，紧张的是大选即将来临。我仅是一位刚满二十一岁的大学生，原则上我符合投票者的资格，但实际上我的申请不被批准。原因是二月二十一日才刚满二十一岁已超过申请的期限。对于这一点，我感到非常遗憾，因为不能够投上手中神圣的一票。近日，我碰见一位长辈，他对我说关于大选的话题。他虽然比我年长，在这江湖打滚几十年，吃盐多过我吃米，行桥多过我行路，但不代表他是对的。我看在他是我长辈的份上，我没回应太多，只是觉得你的决定以后就由你来负责，而我也会因此尊重你的决定。但如果只因贪图眼前利益而背叛自己的良心，我想告诉你这伤口永远都在。

这次大选让我看透太多太多，好的坏的这一切一切呈现在眼中。我很想感谢每位有份把事情的真相以及真相之全部公然天下。不然我这位井底之蛙永远都被蒙在谎言及虚伪当中。身为一位媒体大学生，得知我国的主流媒体完全被掌控，完全没有权利报道事情的真相及全部。把可为人知的公告天下，不为人知的就隐藏起来。过着自欺欺人的态度面对大众，到底良心在哪？突然觉得我眼前一片灰暗，心里不断地问：我的未来，我的学问，我现在的努力，以后能派上用场吗？！我的良心在以后会渐渐被眼前的利益所蒙蔽吗？？？

人民常常把自己的力量视为蚂蚁般，但只要我们团结对抗恶势力，这力量可无比的大。两次bersih就证明人民团结就是力量，不分你我，无分种族，我们在这里就是马来西亚的子弟。有国才有家，我们要保护我们的国，才能够有个幸福美满的家庭。如果你有资格去投票，为何不？真不明白有些人总爱置身事外....你们还不觉悟？还不清楚吗？？？？

最近都在面子书上打混，未尝错过任何一个演讲影片。大家要改变的热血，我感应到了。我很感动的是我们想要的再不是个梦，再不是空想，而是有所行动。我们要的是改变！把一切不好的除掉，争取好的回来。五月五将会是马来西亚人民的一个转折点，我们都把一切希望押在自己手中的一票，就等于把信任交托给了值得信赖的人。我对你们都很有信心，我希望你们日后的行动值得为我们投你神圣的一票而感到骄傲。加油吧～

Being woman doesn't easy...

Recently I realize everything goes smoothly. This made me suddenly wondered what was happened to me that I might do not know it. Oh ya… my mom was there. Why I said so. This was because all the household duties were being completed by her. When I woke up, there had ready the breakfast on the table. After having breakfast, I could do my own things or go to class without caring so much of things, as I know my mom could help me to settle it down. But before one week ago, my mom was not at home because she travelled oversea about few days. Within those day, I through the days like I have been throughout a year. Everything had to be done by me. As usual, I seldom to clean the house and all the chores are under my mom. Therefore, each of us include dad, brother and me no need to worry those matters. And perhaps we think that we are excluded to in charge those things. So before that, I never think my mom is just like the superwoman to take care each of us, now I know her job considered endless in life. She is reliable person to us. We rely on her to do everything in home. No matter what or how, once we need her, she will appear in front of us. So I say, being a woman doesn’t easy nowadays especially for those who are married and being a mother. They are so powerful women in our life. Because they seem to know well in everything, some are not only expert in working but also the way how they take care of their homes.  *Big clap* 

Lyrical Musical "Magical"

As usual, I like listen to the song, especially those classic song. I love the melody and also the lyric. By according to my view, I think classic songs used to be more “clear” to express every each of the word in lyric rather than those trendy music nowadays. So when during holidays, I used to listen classic song to enjoy the moment of relax. It’s so wonderful to me. I don’t know why I would like to investigate the real meaning of the lyric. Somehow, I would act the way of discover the hidden meaning about the lyric; it could be the story behind the song. That’s why some songs could touch my heart while listening to them. I’ve heard about an interviewing with a famous composer in Hong Kong, he said ‘I used to express my feelings through the lyrics’. I admire the way he used to release his expression. Therefore, make the songs to become even meaningful and powerful. I always think the lyric would be the soul while melody would be the body of the song. The combination could be mix but must be match to each other then. 

Beautify Your Mind

Plastic surgery doesn’t mean good or bad, just depend how you think about it. Based on my perception, sometimes plastic surgery could be one of the elements to build up someone’s confident. However, people used to plastic surgery don’t mean they are not beautiful but just dissatisfied with some part of their appearance. In other way round, they just tend to be even more perfect than previous. After having plastic surgery, maybe I couldn’t to make sure the result would be good enough for them, but at least ‘beautify’ their minds as a human. 

The changes

Throughout the years, I realized I’ve changed a lot, not only the appearance but also the personalities.  I still remember I used to self-closing or could be said as an autistic child during childhood. Perhaps people wondered why I said so. I think they might know the external part of me but not the exact internal of me. During childhood, I was not used to share everything with people. No matter how I close to the person, I kept the secrets in my mind rather than reveal them. I don’t know why, maybe I scare of people may ridicule me. However, now I only knew this so-called I lacking the self-confident during that time. I don’t dare to reveal the secret because I scare of people may despise me after knowing the real of me. But recent years, I’ve come through a lot of matters and know there’s nothing I can fear of, at least I’ve tried being generous and confident when sharing with others. For me, it would be better in life. Perhaps people do not think to ridicule you but just you are the one who think like this way. 

It's me

Do you ever create an object to represent your personality? Yes, I did it. Last time I have done with my work that ordered by my visual communication tutor. He wanted us to create an object that could used to represent ourselves. After consideration for long hours, I have decided to make an astronomical telescope to represent myself.

Briefly to definite about astronomical telescope is an instrument that designed to collect and record light from cosmic sources in thus to make us able to observe the object with a long distance. By the way, I read it as the same characteristics with me. As we know, astronomical telescope used to observe the object with a very accurate angle of lens otherwise it could not be functioned at all. Therefore, it functions the way like me. I am the person who really cares about the details. All the things will be arranged and planned in details before take actions.

Besides, astronomical telescope used to observe the object with a distance that we could not even touch it or feel it. And for me this is just like a dream or feelings we unable to touch but we able to see and detect the existing of it. So it means on me as well. I like to dream but sometimes some my rational minds to ask me stop dreaming. Therefore, I have putted the red color with thicker line to represent the braveness that I should own to chase my dreams bravely in future. Also, enhance my strength to face any problems with fully confidence.

While for the yellow dots brokenly from starting point located to form a line and ending with a form of star shape. It means to my life should be cheerfulness and curiosity like the way we looking through the space by astronomical telescope. By the way, the surrounding black area of body telescope provides a greater contrast to the yellow dots and red line, therefore they appear even brighter and clearer about the meaning of them bring to me.  

Let's talk about dreams...

Last time gathering with friends, they’ve shared about their dreams. By the way, when they asked me I was stuck because so far I really have no exact dream that I desire to achieve. One of them said, you have no dream to achieve then you are nothing different with a salted fish. Yes, I agree. I even think that is a very good description as well. No matter how, everybody lives for their dreams, includes you and me. 

Unfortunately, we mostly act to dream but never make it true. Sometimes, we think the dream is just a dream never being true in life or we are giving us a lot of excuses we unable to make it true. I even heard someone told me before, he was regretted because he never putting hard to achieve her dream during boyhood. Now the physically environment makes him even hard to achieve the dream, but he never think to give up. He doesn’t want to regret one more time. He always keeps saying that ‘there’s nothing to make you appreciate except times’. Therefore, appreciate the times you have and to achieve every dream that you desire to achieve. Importantly, never scare of fail, because once you fail you even get more chances to make it success in the end.