The tattoo means to you...

 

Yesterday my brother suddenly told me he has decided to tattoo. And I was shocked when he told me this because as I know he can't stand with pain but now he wants to 'challenge' the pain of tattoo. As we know making tattoo is super pain. That's why I wonder how brave he decided to make it.
Actually tattoo bringing different 'view' of person. It could be an artistic to someone thinks it is one of the icons to represent themselves. On the other hand, it could be a trendy to show it is an icon of fashion. For the old-thinker, what they perceived from the tattoo would be icon of the gangster such as my mother who absolutely objects my brother to make tattoo. But for me, tattoo reflects someone's attitude toward themselves. According to my view, for those who ever think to go for tattoo actually they want to make themselves slightly different with others or even the previous of them. They want to 'mark' something to represent the deep thought of them which mean the real personality of them. For example, someone I knew he had tattoo a leopard on his arm. He has shared with me about the hidden meaning of the tattoo brought to him. Then I only realized actually tattoo can means something to a person. It is so powerful actually. However, some of the people regret after they had tattoo. So, I suggest for those who ever think to tattoo must think deeply before you take action but not because of the fashion or trendy to make you to do that. Because it would be worthless for you to effort the pain of it, this was also what I advised my brother yesterday.

I'm the only director

Sometimes I wonder why people assume 'this' as better or even the best. Such as a big eyes girl with double-eyelid look prettier than single-eyelid girl. That's why plastic surgery exists for serving in this world. Or another example, skinny girls seem like having more chance to have relationship with guys than fatty girl? Why we don't think differently? Do you ever to think that the God create us with eyes, mouth, nose or ears actually there come with different way to use and to think of it. In fact, the single-eyelid could be very pretty with a stylish cosmetic but not exactly fix it with double-eyelid only considered as pretty eyes. Or even try to make it naturally to create no obstacles there. This is because we always tend to look something beautiful in nature but not intently created by us. So sometimes, I would try to think differently with other people. Actually 'beautiful' created by the way how we think of it but not judged by the origin. And we should tend to 'beautify' ourselves but not totally 'change' the real of us. We're always the unique in the world. So there's no point to make us change the unique of us to become common. If you're think to change the real of you, actually it is meanigless to you. Because you're no longer who you are to be...

 

Black is "White"

 Colors could mean 'something' to us. But then, the colors read by us with different meanings. Somebody read black as gloomy. However, I'd read it as sober. This is because when I feel stress with my works I would close my eyes and try to calm down my mind. At that moment, I see everything in black. And actually it is very comfortable after refreshing my brain with the 'all black environment'. When I open my eyes, there will be even 'brighter' than previous and thus to cause me settle down to do everything. That's why sometimes black color for me even looked 'brighter' than white color.

 

A wonderful moment..

Sigh ...I haven't complete all tasks that I should done by today. The assignments that given by tutors or housework that ordered by mom. In addition, a presentation is waiting for me on the next wednesday. And this coming weekend still have to work. Oh my godness..now I realize 24 hours per day for me is not enough. The following weeks after Chinese New Year will be another exhausted journey for me since all the classes will be replaced and a lot of assignments and presentation waiting for me. Thus, before heading to those things, I've promised myself should enjoy my Chinese New Year holidays. I will spend the holiday effectively. So now I already planned what I should do during CNY. Here briefly to share about my plan. Day 1, I'll go to pay a New Year call to my relatives who living in Selangor state. Since we have so long time didn't meet each other, so there will be a very good chance to make us all together. However, I am not ready to answer all the 'critical' questions that will be asked by them. By the way, pay a New Year call will be continuing on the next day as well. Then for the day 3, I have decided go Genting Highlands together with my cousins for staying 2days1night. This would be my first time travelling during Chinese New Year holidays with them. I think this trip must be very funny because they all are jokers and drive me crazily with their lame jokes. Now I'm expecting all the things go smoothly during those days and try to make it enjoyable and memorable.

This photo taken by two years ago, the times flying so fast...same as blink your eyes. However, nothing can change the real expressions of us in this photo. It was so memorable...

Obsessive-compulsive disorder

Sometimes I wonder why I should do 'it' intently. If no, I would be so uncomfortable or unsecure. Somehow, 'it' became one of my habits in life. Did you ever realize sometimes what you do that is all come from your mind automatically? Yes, I did. This just like somebody needs to drink a cup of coffee before working. If no, seem like everything cannot be done smoothly on that day. For me, everything will be done by today must be arranged and planned by yesterday. If someone or something mess up my 'schedule' that could totally drive me crazily. Or even sometimes, when i find out anything that I cannot stand with would able to make me mad easily. For instance, when I having meal with my mom, she cannot finish all the rice in her plate, I would be so uncomfortable with it. And usually I will ask my mom to finish it, some more I think we should appreciate the foods. However, someone told me yesterday about my reactions are considered as one kind of disease, called as Obessive- compulsive disorder (OCD). It also known as a kind of anxiety disorder. Through the information that I obtained from web, state that the patients always suffering on thinking invasive plagued by recurring obsessions and compulsions in life, so that the patients feel anxiety, panic or worry and repetitive behaviors such as washing hands few times continuously. However, it can be classified as three stage, slightly, moderate and serious. So I think I m the slightly one because mostly I've self-control to make myself not easily to get mad. And now I've found another way to release my 'uncomfortable and unsecure' for example like exercising or listening to the light music. At that moment, keep comforting myself: Relax..relax..relax..

It's the time to discover yourself

Today was my first time to discover myself through a test that prepared by my tutor. My tutor is a very funny man that used to guide us in different way in order to lead us thinking. He gave a test and wanted us to think ‘something’ to represent us. The ‘something’ can be a living thing or whatever that we think it can be an icon on us. However, before I started to decide whether what thing can represent me, I was thinking about actually who am I. I was keep asking my friends how they think on me, not only the appearance they have seen on me but also the characteristics that have on me as well. By the way, they used one thing to describe me. I was surprised when most of them answered me with the unexpected answers. The things they used to describe me all very systematic, for example like clock or even an alarm. They explained the reasons why chose those things to describe my character with the reason like I was the person who very care about the sequence and arrangement. However, they’re right because I really that kind of person. But I think that my characters just like a lifebuoy that would make everyone reliable on me and trust me all the ways. Then you can see the picture below shows that the baby so relaxing with ‘me’ without worrying about anything. So, it’s me.

Hello everybody, I've discovered myself, how about you?

近况。

不知不觉地一个月过去了，现在是大学的第一个学期放假。在家的这几天可悠闲了..我好享受这样哟。因为前阵子实在太忙了，搞得我的生活像是在赛跑似的。想了想，盲目地工作赚钱及拼搏学业真的是让我从中又忽略掉了一些些更甚为重要的事。

世界末日的消息纷纷传来我耳边，不得不让我从新再考虑如果那成为事实的话，此刻我想要的是什么？是赚钱？还是课业上拿甲级？所以，我也慎重考虑得很清楚。我想要让自己快乐及休息，不管是心灵或是体能方面。休息是为了想走更长的路，适当的休息真的让我顿时活力充沛。

上个月里，我辞了补习老师的工作，只专注在课业上。果然更让我有心有力去完成所有课业。碰着很好很棒的导师及同学，虽然我糊涂地犯了很多错误及闹了许多笑话，也渐渐成为大家的笑柄，但也就算了吧～哈哈哈反正开心就好。

上两个星期日是我的毕业典礼，原本不想参加，但最终参加的原因只不过因为这是咱们两年半的回忆是时候给它一个完美的句点。当天我稍微装身让自己在照片里能好看些，怎知到了下午我脸上的妆溶了七七八八，汗流浃背，真的是比平时还狼狈。～.~" 早知就不化妆了，花妈还说我不化还好看，妆溶了我看起来更可怕。算了，自然给我是万岁。

每逢学校大放假干妹妹就会来我家到访并且住个一头半个月。时间过得真快，干妹妹的身高已到我的肩膀了。她很可爱，说话有趣，时常把我们逗得乐开怀。但她有时无意间地抛些"难题"给我....真的是难道我了丫～妹子！

在还未挂上句点的人生，我希望大家生活快乐及安康。每人存著多点包容及体谅，让现有的生活更美好些。愿再会～=）